i know self-loathing isn't really the way to go

 I feel the cold & see the lights in the streets

Below my window in my room sipping tea…

I see reflections of the lights, I was feeling low.

You find the night and then you lose it inside the snow.

8 months or 3 months it’s all a matter of time.

To make peace with yourself and stars to realign.

What I used to reject, I came to embrace.

When I forgot who I was, the shame was erased.


True self acceptance means what?

At this point the evening is in my heart…

True warmth masquerades at dusk

And the lights around me conceal the stars.

There is a snake coiled around my throat

It winds its way in-between my teeth

And in these distant lights I feel the hope

And witness the lives of those I’ll never meet…


This Monday evening is perfect, even though it’s Monday.

And there was no one left nor a word that I could say…

Whether I stay or part, I know the future holds a bliss,

And now I would not go back even if I had a wish.

I made peace with myself, on the final day of war.

I made a final vow, now my heart’s no longer torn.

And if I see myself, maybe, somewhere down the line,

The evening will surround me and I’ll long after these lights.


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